You came. That’s all that matters. You came, and i want to thank you for that.
Bad timing or not, i want to let you know i am thankful for every little thing you did and doing.
Thought what we had were infinite, thought you will always be the first person I wake up to, and the last I will text before I fall asleep with my phone in my palm. Thought you could be the one to make me feel that way, thought you could be the one to set me free.
You saw me at my weakest, you hold me when I was angry. You were there to hear me rant at every single human being alive, you were there to melt these angers away.
But there’s something about this time, I couldn’t go to you, I couldn’t go soft and be the first it initiate anything anymore. You broke me, you literally put that arrow through my heart. And I’m still bleeding. I’m down, I’m out. Now. But I will be up, not any time soon, but I will be, some day. Someday I will be able to look back to us and smile at the wonderful times we had, and able to move forward. Someday will come.
But right now, it still hurts. You lied, you hid the truth, you gave up on us and walked straight into her arms. Now I understand, maybe. If you bothered enough, you would have stuck to your words.
But you didn’t.
And maybe someday, I will understand why things happen in ways we can’t comprehend.